Tarmac burns on this
broken road.
Stones and glass slice,
my mood will shift -
on the roll of a dice.
I was a little girl with
daisy-daydreams…
He loves me, He loves me not.
Now lies become the truth,
and a single smile -
can mean a lot.
Hello there, I'm Rachael.
For me the act of writing poetry is so many things. It's confessional, diary-keeping, hopeless speculation, problem solving, story-telling, therapy, anger management and relaxation all rolled into one convenient (and free) package. Almost everything I write is from personal experience. And because of the anonymous nature of a blog, I feel comfortable sharing things I wouldn't dream telling anyone in my everyday life. I suppose it's my outlet, my own little secret endeavour that keeps me sane and is entirely mine. I make no promises of producing 'quality' pieces of worthwhile literature. My main objective is to be honest, and hopefully you'll be able to find something you can to relate to in this jumble of words.
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Tarmac burns on this
broken road.
Stones and glass slice,
my mood will shift -
on the roll of a dice.
I was a little girl with
daisy-daydreams…
He loves me, He loves me not.
Now lies become the truth,
and a single smile -
can mean a lot.
My pen feels like a stranger,
and you, a clear and present danger.
We run on fumes,
on resentment we fear to lose.
Because then we would have to be friends,
and act of social cues.
Just like everyone else.
It is rich, this resentment,
that will ooze.
Greasy and sickly to the touch.
Everyday, in your presence
is a new disaster.
A car crash on loop,
always moving faster.
I’m tired of this -
my accelerated anger.
Yet I never put my foot on the brake.
Because when this is all over,
what will remain when I wake?
The moon pours through the ceiling tonight,
liquid love and flowing light.
I exist, within the fault lines of his thoughts.
I hop, from one shadow to the next,
playing hop-scotch with his heart.
On sunny days like these,
he takes an ice-pick to my hard edges,
and grips, grasps and grapples for dear life.
A solar eclipse collapses into view,
and whether it is cold, dark, or whether we
are dancing on the surface of the sun,
turning our feet to soot -
nothing seems to be important.
Not in the face of such desperation.
He smelt of summer,
the pollen in the air,
got under his nails.
I followed him,
buzzing around his
atmosphere
like a bee to a flower.
Attraction, made my nostrils
widening at the smell of
his cut grass smile.
I sunbathed in his embrace,
like a lazy child
waking up to birdsong.
Crimson kindness led to blindness
oracles traced the time and day as
early crisis from winter vices
to golden lacerations gave way.
The full house folded, reverse eroded and
angels became stone midflight, they
suckled from the wells of self preservation
for too many moons, and mutated into
comely shadows bent on sin.
Morning air,
tempers his granite glare.
We look at each other,
we share a lingering stare.
Contempt/tpmetnoC.
A mirror image,
of a withered love.
Like butterflies pinned,
on being a spare.
A collectors edition and no more.
It is in the morning air,
when a pair,
no longer care…
Two wings no longer thump
in tandem.
Stone cold sober,
dawn breaks.
Like a wave on the shore.
Trickster, lover, whore.
Mascara falls in great clumps,
and lands at his feet in puddles.
A sleeve turns orange,
as her fake ‘for the world’ skin
leaves tribal stripes down her cheeks.
He only cared for a mask,
not the girl beneath it.
Her biggest statement,
was the sight of her back.
The sound of stiletto on her way out.
Against the macabre backdrop
of my last few poems
there sits this piece
lily light
where I tell you I am smiling now
thinking about my excellent family
to the sound of my cat snoring
and that it is good
Beautiful.
Let’s steal our borrowed time;
Take swiftly the lives they’ve lent
In torture, allowed us to lead
With sweeter dreams, to rip love letters sent
Through brazen hearts set aflame
To keep from starving staleness
Among love lost young, lost
Early, before true knowledge of sweet caress.
Love doesn’t shatter.
Two people going separate ways
is a collision.
The time between them,
is the crumple zone.
The head lights crack with
loneliness,
and the bumper that protects their
hearts?
Splits in two.
Oil leaks in black tears,
and glass litters the pavement
like words unsaid.
Smoke billows,
on that final goodbye.
And sirens call out,
when he turns his back on you.
New love, cuts deep.
My cynicism makes
his smiles cheap.
Its easy to believe
the worst,
when your mind
recoils from the first.
I’m afraid of change,
to take a leap of trust,
to move on,
forget
and adjust.